It’s here. The night before everything changes forever, I become a Wife tomorrow. I still can’t believe I’m saying that, I still feel like I should be 18 pottering about enjoying student life. Tonight I’m back in my old bedroom. It feels weird to be back after 2 years, but extremely comforting at the same time. I LOVED this room, in fact I still do. It was my own little hideaway for 10+ years of my life. It was the place I felt safest, away from the realities of teenage life. Sometimes I wish I could spend just one more night here as a teenager. I would bottle it up and keep that feeling for a lifetime.
Im a mixture of emotions to be honest. Im nervous and anxious, but also overly excited and confident that it’s the right thing to do. I wonder which emotion will stand out the most tomorrow. It’s funny how all the anxiety is caused by small things out with my control, and if they were to go wrong no one would probably notice apart from me.
It’s been over two years since we booked our wedding and I’m shocked at how quickly it has come around. At the beginning everyone used to say “It will be here before you know it” and I would be like, yeah right!! It’s been the QUICKEST two years ever. Im glad we waited a while though. We were still so young when we got engaged (I know, we still are so young!), but it has given us time to grow as individuals and as a team. The saying ‘ you never really know someone until you live with them’ is 100% correct. Over the last two years we have been able to find what our roles truly are to one another and we can see a clear driven and motivated plan for our future.
I never did think that when I met Ross in first year of secondary school he would one day be my husband. It’s strange how fate works. I could never imagine anyone else being the one to say the words ‘I do‘. Don’t get me wrong, we’ve had some tough times over the years, and even more so recently with the stresses of the wedding. And if I’m being really honest, I sometimes wondered if we would even make it. But we have, and we will continue too. It’s not real life without its hiccups, neither of us are perfect and as long as the fire to fight for each other is still there, then you get through it.
I have waited for this moment since I was a little girl, the cinderella princess moment. Nothing means more to me than being Mrs Nelson and fulfilling my life’s purpose of being a Wife. I hope tomorrow is everything we have ever dreamed of and my hard work gives Ross a day to remember. I couldn’t have put it all together without the amazing help from our family and friends.
Signing off as Miss Wright for the last time… See you in the morning x