I can’t believe its been so long since I last posted anything on here. I stumbled across it when I was on the laptop and forgot how much work I have put into my blog and felt incredibly sad. Infact, I think I neglected it because I worried too much about what others thought of me.
Anyway, a lot has changed since I last posted. I have my own house with Ross and we have had two career changes. All for the better may I add. I had a thought recently and have been struggling for a little while now and wondered how many other women feel the same…
I am constantly torn between being an independent, successful business women and a comfortable, supportive, house proud wife to be. Instagram is one of the biggest reasons for this. Everyday I seen bloggers, business women and general successful women and I get a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. I want that. I constantly find myself goggling ‘how to make money from Instagram’ or ‘business ideas for women’ or ‘how I can feel equal to my significant other?!?!?!’
Over the years women have evolved into strong independent women and have proved that we don’t need no man to keep a roof over our heads or food in our tummy. So, why do I feel insignificant to him? I work 40 hours a week, I keep a house running and more than contribute to our household bills but deep down I feel that it is never enough. I want to walk out that door every morning full off Sass knowing that I have built and started something myself. That I have created something that has given us the life we have. Am I being realistic?
I still haven’t found an idea, yet! I suppose I will keep going and keep telling myself that I am doing all I can and that is more than enough. I don’t want his success to carry me through life, providing me with things that I want to provide myself with. I am in constant turmoil and I hope I am not alone.
My new career definitely has the possibility for me to really strive and push myself to the point in life where I have a more than respectable income. But there I go again, constantly bringing it back round to money. Does it really matter how much your pay packet is? Shouldn’t it be about how happy you are and as long as you have your essentials then your basically winning at life?? Money doesn’t make you happy obviously but it sure does make life a little bit easier!
Arrrrggggghhhhh! Will this ever end?!?!!!
Please Send Help.
Love, Pamy xox